dusktransfixed's Journal

celtic music is sweet

I am really bored. So I decided to create another blog, even though I already have one. But I got tired of that one, and decided to start afresh.

I've been really bored lately. When I'm not hanging out with other people (and with one person in particular), and when I'm not in class or doing homework, I just end up wasting time by surfing the internet and botching recipes and sitting on my ass. And spilling coffee on myself, which I just did. In fact, I am even bored when I am in class or doing homework. Because, let's face it, school gets old. I think it's kind of funny how I attempt to be the perfect student who always puts forth her best effort and takes everything very seriously and has the "correct attitude," but then I realize I really don't care, and then I skip a class or two just to prove it. Or I drop a class, which I just recently did.

Dang, this car alarm has been going off outside since 8:00 this morning (it is now past noon), and it's driving me nuts.

I think I'm just bored with living in the cities. At least in Duluth, there is some form of wilderness of which to partake. Here there are just some poor excuses for city parks. I hate how everything seems so fake. The endless suburbs and planned neighborhoods and freeways and asphalt. This would be fine if there was some sort of balance with the natural scenery. But there is nothing natural left around here. I started reading "I Left My Heart at Wounded Knee," and I was trying to envisage what this area must have been like in the 18-19th centuries. It must have seemed like a paradise - endless forests, meadows, and lakes, belonging to no one but available for everyone. I often wonder what it would be like to live in a small, tribal, semi-nomadic society. That, to me, would be ideal. Sure, you'd have to actually work for your survival, but don't we do that anyway? Besides, everything would be focused on the survival of the group, not merely the individual. That sort of lifestyle somehow seems much more meaningful, because you'd be part of something larger than yourself, and your primary concern would be other people rather than your own needs and desires. I should go up into the Yukon and insigate that sort of society.

In Turkey, they still have tribal nomads who travel about in goatskin tents with their flocks and herds. The government has been trying to force them to settle down so their children can be enrolled in school and get steady jobs. Sadly, this means that lifestyle is coming to an end, in the name of "progress" and "modernization." As much as I value education, I do not value how it is instituted as merely a means of attaining an occupational goal. Sometimes I wish the industrial revolution could just be undone.

I'm going to do yoga now.

Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Celtic